This is spying. Isn't it FUN?

[neverwrongagent]

Brody attending the meeting Walker had so casually mentioned turned into a three ring circus. More than one person involved was convinced the whole thing was a wild goose chase, including Carrie occasionally. If she hadn't seen Walker as up close and personal as she had when they were first rescued, she could have been convinced. Maybe sending Brody to a regular meeting for returning vets who were also Muslim was just a kind of fuck you from a man who felt he'd been betrayed by a brother soldier. Or it could be something much more sinister. The problem was, no one could really figure out what that sinister was supposed to be. Carrie continued to maintain that Brody had no idea what was going on.

The questions Brody faced right after the meeting ranged from if he knew any of the people there already to how was he planning to overthrow the US government. When the questions headed that way a majority of the time, Carrie called foul and got Brody out of there. With full understanding of the irony involved, they had decided that the cover that would work best with his family was that he was working with other vets on integrating back into the world. Carrie would have felt a lot worse about that if it was just being used to cover up them fucking around. She still felt pretty shitty about it given how much stress it was putting on him.

They took their own cars back to her place. She got there before him and immediately opened a fresh bottle of wine, leaving a full glass on the counter for him, then she went upstairs to change into something decidedly less official looking.

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[neverwrongagent]

Carrie blinked a little at the shift, then straightened a little in his arms when she answered. "This one. There isn't one near the dining table, so if the kitchen is loud..." She shrugged easily, but if Saul knew she was telling him this, she'd get yanked away from Brody in a heartbeat. "The patio."

Of course, she wasn't telling him that his place was bugged.

[posterboymarine]

He nodded. "Guess I won't say anything I don't want overheard in any other room." He kissed her forehead. "Like how much I need you."

[neverwrongagent]

She shuddered hard. "I'm here. Promised I wouldn't leave again." She didn't know what else to say. Every time she thought about being away from him, she felt sick. "I wish it was easier for you."

What she really wished was that she was all he needed, but that was something she couldn't possibly say.

[posterboymarine]

With one hand resting on her back, he pet her hair with the other. "Things haven't been easy for me for awhile. Since you guys dug me out of that hole." He kissed her nose. "I wonder if you'd feel the same if we hadn't met before."

[neverwrongagent]

It was a fair question, one she wasn't sure of the answer to, mostly because she wasn't sure he would have opened up to her if he hadn't known her. Suddenly she looked away, not wanting to say what she'd thought. She wasn't strong enough to keep it to herself. "She knew you before."

[posterboymarine]

He frowned slightly. "But she doesn't know me now."

[neverwrongagent]

Carrie nodded and rested her head back on his chest. It was complicated, not something they were going to figure out in one go, if ever. She closed her eyes and tried to enjoy the warm water.

[posterboymarine]

When she put her head down he closed his eyes. None of it was fair, from them to the fact that he was living life as a pawn of a government agency that shouldn't even be operating stateside.

And even if he could commit to her, he couldn't do anything as long as they were trying to figure out what Walker was up to. They were stuck.

[neverwrongagent]

She stayed there, relaxed in his arms, half floating in the water, until it started getting cold. For a moment she considered adding more water, but it was getting late and they both needed real sleep. She turned and kissed his jaw. "Come sleep with me?"

[posterboymarine]

He hugged her as he nodded. "Really sleep? Or are you going to molest me?" That he could joke again indicated his level of relaxation. He still wasn't completely comfortable with his own actions, but as long as she still wanted him around, he'd keep staying.

[neverwrongagent]

She sputtered a laugh. "Tell you what, I'll wake you up right." The idea of either of them being up to any sex at the moment was unreal, comforting, but unreal. She touched his cheek. "I'll get creative."

[posterboymarine]

Leaning into her touch, he nodded. "Like with a cup of tea?" He winked at her, then nodded. "You have to get up first, babe."

[neverwrongagent]

She slowly drew herself away from him and out of the tub. "Hey, if that's what you want, I can work on that." She got them both fresh towels and dried off quickly so she could turn off the music and get the bed ready. She was incredibly tempted to go tell whoever was listening that the concert was over and they should all go to sleep.

She crawled into the bed and made a space for him beside her.

[posterboymarine]

As he dried himself he watched her, smiling softly. It was very domestic and it broke his heart. Then she was calling him over and he wasted no more time in joining her.

Once he was under the covers, he reached for her. They'd been apart long enough for his liking and he really did want to sleep.

[neverwrongagent]

If the domesticity broke his heart, then the way she immediately curled around him like a kitten should have shattered him. She knew they slept best when they were close. Her eyes closed immediately once she was in his arms.

[posterboymarine]

He watched her until she fell asleep before giving in himself. He rested his cheek against her hair and let himself go, drifting off almost immediately now that he let himself.