She didn't want to drag him through the worst of it any more than she had to. Doing that would put up distance between them and that was the last thing she wanted to do. She needed him to feel close, to be able to talk to her. Finally, she realized just how long they'd been going. Had he been a bad guy, she'd never have stopped, but she made herself grind to a halt. "This is amazing stuff, Nick. I can't tell you how valuable this is."